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On Dating

There is one thing I live by or at least I feel like I do,  for you to be in my life you need to be the very best.  This means I need to be the best to attract the best.  Occasionally I slip, occasionally I settle, and like every one of us we have replaced best for good so I'm constantly torn between moving on to another person and replacing the same person with a different name and the cycle continues. Well, I'm among the 99% of humans with the talent of making bad decisions. Whew, I would have probably dated the whole world when I'm done replacing but good thing I realized not so early enough though, there is a difference between good and best. You can't be preparing yourself for the best and settling for good. Yoo, I'm still Dimensionsofgold and I'm here to let you know, You don't need someone who is good for you, you need someone who is best for you. Well, this applies to those working on being the best. If you are working on being the best, ...

Not For Better, Nor For Worse

"I do not take you to be my lawful wedded husband I promise not to have and hold you  from this day forward, till death do us part" The transcript for this new age or woke generation however you want to describe it doesn't have "honoring vows" as part of its guidelines.  Our vocabulary seem to have a lot of breakups and divorce instead of commitments and it makes me question the  need of making vows if we won't at least try to make it last forever. What's the need of saying ''I do'' when what you are really saying is "I do only when it's smooth" We view relationships as something we can easily get out from and as much as we should have the liberty to get out of a relationship when it doesn't align with our purpose anymore we seem to have taken that liberty too far. Each one of us has a different definition of love and when we come together it becomes a clash of the titans. God knowing this would happen gave us a clea...

So You Think You Can Make Heaven

Hello there, let me tell you a story; So, I am a medical student who loves to read, and because of that,  I got to a point where I assumed people should be humans first before being a Christian, and that really made sense.  I felt like a genius. Every decision I made was based on me being human not necessarily because God said I should. I mean, should you say the truth because God said you should? Nah, come on.  You are human, you should know this. So I will go ahead and say the truth because I am human first and in addition to that God also said I shouldn't so God's word is a bonus. God's word cannot be a bonus, it's everything. I have listened to More by Lawrence Flowers a whole lot of times and I'm always focused on the Chorus until one day the 2nd verse hit me; "oh the worshiper in me wants to break free from the intellectual mentality"  And it dawn on me;(crap), Emmy this is your life, intellectual mentality. You think you know ...

The Breakups

You know when you read so many books there is a tendency for you to assume you know a lot.You actually do know a lot but does this massive chunks of knowledge you are acquiring align with Gods word. There are no grey areas with God and no matter how we try to justify our decisions, somethings will always remain wrong. So this is me reading anything i can pick on about relationship,life and so many self help books.My book shelf seems like i'm crazy and even when i know no one is perfect i get into a relationship with a list of what whoever i am with should look like. I get in with an expectation that has nothing to do with what God wants for me,i just get in to satisfy my needs. So i meet you,i  immediately assume my therapist job and analyse everything about you,every conversation and view point then i place your flaws before you. That's weird right;yea,i know.When i see you,i see your flaws,so i make a decision if i can put up with it or not. So my numerous book...

Dear Men

Dear men, Scratch that . Dear society, you know; never mind. I keep saying I want to have just boys because I want to teach them that being a guy isn't so much of a big deal,we all got blood running through our veins. When I listen to some guys speak it gets me annoyed,confused and a whole rush of different emotions I can't put into words. A woman speaks up for herself and she is labeled aggressive. Read the reason I left Feminism A woman tells you this is what she can put up with and y'all say she got an attitude that would lead her no where.  Well, I don't want to go no where with you and that mentality. When a guy does any of this some how the word personality appears in the dictionary and everyone goes on and on saying thats just his personality,"Its a masculine thing". Well, you are damn right it's a feminine thing that i won't put up with any thing you believe a woman should put up with simply because she is a woman and if it takes m...

Rant Baby,Rant.

Your last words were "Okay, what is wrong" What is wrong? Are you serious? I waited for your message hoping out of respect you would text but respect isn't your strongest attribute. I waited out of love believing the lies you fed me with but all you did was  confirm  lies were your strongest attributes. It took me days to realize you loved me at your convenience, when you felt I was deserving. When you had too much to eat and the crumbs were littered everywhere, so you fed me with your deserving crumbs. And oh dear even your deserving love wasn't deserving at all. I loved you with all of me I wish I could change this. But you thrive on being chased  so you loved me with the extra things I did to get your attention. And, Yes Did I want this attention. You borrowed my love to love me no wonder I felt so much void with you. I poured in so much and yet, you kept stealing. So much for telling everyone to be careful  with whom...

It's My Body I Can Do Whatever I Want With It

"It's my body I can do whatever I want with it" Amongst the numerous quotes and sayings I have recently deduced as 'wrong', this happens to be the most insane. To crown it all, there are movements to actually support this notion  headed by women who claim to be Christians when the question of religion and going to church arises but when it comes to how they should dress to church and life at large it suddenly becomes; 'its my body, I can do what I want". This movement has been covered under the canopy of 'self love and do you, the world will adjust' and it just surprises me when Christian women pledge to this movement with their dressing without understanding God will never adjust to mans movement when he has a movement of his own. Click to read my views on making vows It is very confusing because in as much as these women claim to pray and study the word, I have reasons to believe they ignore verses where God says our bodies belong t...