Dimensionsofgold

I have never been in love with Nigeria and for the longest time i always wanted to travel out. I didn't even care what country,as long as it wasn't Nigeria. Overtime our relationship grew worse and it extended to my personal life. By personal life,i meant the people i dated. The people i felt i was in love with. They had this typical Nigerian mindset i couldn't deal with  and the cycle of breakups made me conclude just maybe..i'm meant to be with a white guy. The relationship became so toxic that i had to become the bigger person and end it so i broke up with Nigeria. Even though i ended the relationship i still felt Nigeria failed me, i felt betrayed. I didn't choose to be in this relationship, Nigeria choose me via my parent  so obviously our love was and had to be transactional: i f you meet my needs then i love you, if you don't then i don't. So when the opportunity for me to travel out came i took it without hesitation even when i didn't particularl