Your last words were
"Okay, what is wrong"
What is wrong?
Are you serious?
I waited for your message
hoping out of respect you would text
but respect isn't your strongest attribute.
I waited out of love
believing the lies you fed me with but all you did was
confirm
lies were your strongest attributes.
It took me days to realize you loved me at your convenience,
when you felt I was deserving.
When you had too much to eat and the crumbs were littered everywhere,
so you fed me with your deserving crumbs.
And oh dear
even your deserving love wasn't deserving at all.
I loved you with all of me
I wish I could change this.
But you thrive on being chased
so you loved me with the extra things I did to get your attention.
And, Yes
Did I want this attention.
You borrowed my love to love me
no wonder I felt so much void with you.
I poured in so much
and yet, you kept stealing.
So much for telling everyone to be careful
with whom they entrust their hearts.
I wish I could say I didn't see patterns.
but I did.
I clearly did.
Inconsistency had become your consistent alarm
and as loud as it was
it never for once woke me.
So I, not blindly,
entrusted my heart to a sinking foundation.
What did you have that made me believe
this could stand tall?
I tried to forget what it felt like to be with you
but you love to linger
so it wasn't a surprise when memories lingered
after you left.
And till the end, the memories weren't even deserving
because it never included you.
It was all me.
All me trying to get you to see me
Once again, I had let myself down
once again, I had loved too much
once again, I had given someone the satisfaction
that bare minimum was all I deserved.
Mourning days are over.
RIP my love,
I waited for you
and I almost died alongside a love that never existed.
so rest in love my dear
I'm writing an end without you
I hope to see you not soon.
@Dimensionsofgold
Great stuff here 💪
ReplyDeletePa G
This is even better on second and third read. :-) Well done :-) Really nice work.
ReplyDeleteYaaas
DeleteThis sparks up so many emotions for me. Nicely written.
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DeleteThis write up is just like it was made for me....am emotional right now😢
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